Insanity

Boy, this Lupron is making me frickin' crazy! I have to assume that's what it is, because I am never this mood-swingy normally. I have been having anxiety attacks, followed moments later by feelings of elation. I don't get it...the Lupron is the only thing that makes sense.

I am due to start my Gonal-f stimulating medication tomorrow (after my root canal ::groan::) and I can't wait! I'm hoping that maybe it will balance me out a little? If not, at least it means I'm one step closer to no more shots and a step closer to being pregnant!

My husband and I were talking about what we're going to do when we have kids...as far as jobs, bills, daycare (or not), where we'll live, etc. I've always known it was going to be a huge life change and a huge responsibility and we're totally ready. We'll both be 30 at the end of the year, so there's no more waiting! We'll make it work :) I know God's going to take care of us and lead the way...He's not let us down yet!

Stimming

Yay! I finally get to start stimming on Thursday! I had been waiting for AF to show up and she finally did, on CD40. I thought she'd never get here. So I go to 5u of Lupron today and tomorrow and then 225 Gonal-f + 5u Lupron until Monday when I have my first monitoring appt. They will draw blood and do an ultrasound at that point.

I can't believe that I could possibly have embryos formed of hubby and me inside me in a few short weeks! It's a weird feeling when you've waited so long for something and you're almost there.

My faith is strong right now. God knows of our desire to be parents. I know he hears our prayers and I do feel that he put that desire in our hearts for a reason. I'm praying his protection and blessing over this whole experience!

Tick Tock

And here I sit, still no AF. I want to tell myself that the way I am feeling today is a good indicator that she might come tomorrow, but I don't know...it could just be the effects of the Lupron. At this rate, I'm going to need to order a refill!

I have been having SUCH a hard time concentrating at work. The fact that my boss is out of the office until tomorrow has not helped matters. When she's not here, I am majorly guilty of slacking! Honestly, even when she is, I slack. I do my work though...and I meet my deadlines. I am way too preoccupied with IVF preparations and all the what-ifs that come along with it. I never thought I'd be able to spend hours going over all the different possibilities in my head and thinking of every possible way something could go wrong! But, that's what I do!

Trying to make it through the rest of the day...then I'm going home to soak in a HOT tub and read a book...and get lost in la-la land. :)

Lupron...

I know the last thing I should be doing right now is freaking out about anything. Yet, as is my nature, I am. I started the Lupron injections on 4/10 - that was based on the fact that I was 99% sure I detected a surge with an opk on 4/1 and the fact that my cycles are pretty long. I was told to call if AF didn't show up by 4/23. Of course, I am thinking worst case scenario and worrying that she might not show up by then and I don't know what happens at that point. The stupid thing about that is - when I worry or stress, it usually messes with my cycle.

Here's hoping AF shows before Thursday!

:-/

Intro

My husband and I have been married for 4.5 years now and we tried to have a baby for about 2.5 years before we sought medical help. We started with an RE who was recommended by a friend of mine. Our experience with him was okay...we had the usual consult and were scheduled for all the testing. I had a few tests come back with odd results, but after follow up appointments and further testing, everything was found to be normal. My hubby however, had a semen analysis with zero the first time. I'll never forget that phone call.

Hubby was referred to a Urologist for further testing. From what they could tell, it was not an obstructive problem, however all his hormone and genetic testing came back normal. He was then referred to another Urologist at Boston IVF who specializes in Male Infertility. This doctor has been amazing and SO nice to my hubby from day one. (Because of the way he looks, people are usually intimidated by or condescending to my hubby...the long hair, the leather bracelets, etc.) Hubby was overweight at the time and we were informed that he couldn't have sperm retrieval surgery until he was <300. He is 6'4'' and at the time was 360-ish. Doc put him on Clomid to increase the chances of us finding sperm and hubby hit the gym with a vengeance. He is now <300 an had a MESA surgery last month. And we found sperm!!!! Turns out it was an obstructive issue after all. Nothing that could be fixed, he was just born that way. So...they are on ice now.

I started my Lupron injections a little over a week ago and am just now waiting for AF to show up. I'm really excited but nervous at the same time. I've never had anesthesia, and I'm a little nervous about the egg retrieval because of that. I keep trying to focus on the main goal of this whole process instead of worrying about that stuff though.

I don't know anyone who has gone through this and that is why I decided to join Blogger. I found some blogs on here through a Google search for "IVF Blogs" and it has encouraged me to read the stories of other women's IVF journeys. :)